This was inevitable. I’ve grown too tired of the same old things in my life. I’m fed up with being marginalized by the backwards, societal nonsense of constantly trying to determine what and who I am, (for myself and for others) where I’m going to go in my life, and any other questions that seem to be meaningless every time I ponder them.
I sometimes grow wearisome of my friends, family, and yes, even 'God' is of no use to me anymore. I am done being dependent on trying to be so many different things: to love the way people think is true; to be strong for others, both mentally and physically; to be a good son, brother, grandson, nephew, and cousin; to be an excellent scholar; a good listener; a devout Christian and man of faith; and so many other things. I have and will always a dreamer of the future.
The truth, however, is that every person that I’ve tried to love or have attempted to give a concentrated amount of attention has been hurt doubly, either by my past actions or insistent carelessness, or corresponding combinations of both.
I apologize to all of you.
I’m tired of keeping to myself.
I need you all to understand that the following things explained here are not meant to shock or demean you, although they may confuse you. I want you see what I’ve seen the past few decades and understand why I’ve had to make such definite choices about my own life and the road in which I intend to travel.
WELL-COME TO the abnormal express.
loveT
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